winners and losers

Winners and losers, turn the pages of my life
We're beggers and choosers, with all the struggles and the strife
I got no reason to turn my head and look the other way
We're good and we're evil, which one will I be today?

There's saints and sinners
Life's a gamble and you might lose
There's cowards and heroes
Both have been known how to break the rules
There's lovers and haters
The strong and the weak will all have their day
We're devils and angels
Which one will I be today?

[Chorus:] Are you happy now with all the choices you've made?
Are there times in life when you know you should've stayed?
Will you compromise and then realize the price is too much to pay?
Winners and losers, which one will you be today?

There's a a light and a dark side
Standing at the crossroads, there we'll meet
There's prophets and fools there
The lies and the truths will be at our feet
I got a reason to turn my head and look the other way
It's heaven and hell here, which one will I live today?

Which one will I be today?

- Social Distortion

where are your accusers?

I was sure that the only reason they stuck around was because they didn't know what kind of fuckup they were dealing with. Now I think they do, and they're still here. That hurts almost as bad as being alone, because I can't understand it. The most beautiful thing involving other humans that's ever happened to me, except perhaps marriage, and it's so alien to all I've ever been wired to believe that I'm locked out of it by my inability to grasp it.
I understand punishment, reprisal, reaping what one sows, the law of returns, call it what you like. I do not understand an economy where my most inexcusable defects do not mark me for contempt and rejection. What the hell's in here that's worth what one has to endure to get to it?
Someone please pick up a fuckin' rock so I can get a clue again. Oh God, please don't. Whatever. I don't know. I wish I had a brain. This heart shit is getting old.